a personal image made from the exhibition
March 8th, afternoon light
Palazzo Reale. The doors open into a different kind of church.
I went alone. I always do with artists I love this much. Solitude lets me move at my own rhythm, return to what calls me, and stand as long as I need without accounting for anyone else's time.
Forms of Desire - the title already knows what I came for. What I've been circling toward. The pull is stronger than reason, older than language.
The exhibition (find some photos
here) doesn't move chronologically. It moves the way longing moves, elliptical, returning, deepening with each pass.
The early collages. Bodies torn from magazines, reassembled according to a grammar I'm still learning to read.
Mapplethorpe, before he mastered light, when desire was still something raw, unrefined, showing its teeth.
I step close. Close enough to see where his hands made choices, where scissors met paper, where he decided what stays and what gets cut away. The violence of it. The tenderness.
My pulse slows. The city outside fades. There is only this: standing in front of evidence that someone else felt this, too. This needs to take the world apart and put it back together in the shape of what you want.